Someday

THIS. . .Is My Heart in 2013.

Someday there will be an adventure. . .the "There" that I want to find. But what I've come to is that no matter what. . .there is a future and it is God's adventure not mine. If God is my loving Father he loves my dream. I even believe he put that dream in me. Just like my five year old may have a dream of a birthday party or maybe even a cupcake four days from now. As his parents we are excitedly planning his special day because we love him. We even provided the suggestion of those hopes.  It doesn't matter how good or disobedient he will be. We will celebrate regardless. He knows that at some point our plans and his dream will intersect. Does he worry, expect, and control the outcome. no. I have always struggled with failed expectations being a controlling person. In my heart I want to be like my soon to be five year old. excitement because of the dream. God doesn't want me to doubt his planning abilities! He's got it. He wants me to follow this path. He wants me to follow the dream. He doesn't want time to idolize and cling to it, fearing I'll never get it as a thing coveted. If I surrender right now to him, will not all days now and forever be the adventure. Will not all of my life look sweet to Him and even me if it's his. Why would he not provide a sweetness in this life if I am his and he has kingdom plans for me. Would he not set forth that dream if it fits and if not would it not be even sweeter a purpose because he needed it that way. Walking in obedience. . .that is beauty the outcomes are his. So I will walk step by step living in the fullness of obedience with each step. My identity is Christ.

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